Day 13 | Whining...

I don't feel like writing my feelings and thoughts today. I'm bloated from elimination issues and that makes me grumpy. The problem is that I don't see an end - this isn't a diet to lose 10 or 100 pounds, it's a way of life - a life without fat. I'm mad at myself for allowing my health get to the point of having to eat a fat free diet. I hate myself for allowing everything else in my life get to me in such a negative way - that I've been willing to use my body as my shield not caring that its taking all the hits/pain for me. Ugh!

There were a lot of great things about today but tonight I'm feeling sick from the digestion/elimination issues so my ego is strangely engaged in a not so positive way. It's not a good time to write...

What I ate today:

• Green apple
• Kashi Cinnamon Harvest cereal
• Starbucks soy cappuccino
• Rice crackers
• Dry grilled vegetable fajitas & pinto beans with red & green salsa
• Mexican marinated carrots - I was upset to discover they had vegetable oil on them!!!
• Bean Dip (recipe is in the Day 8 post)
• Celery stalks
• Pickles
• Plum and cantaloupe
• Fiesta Bean Salad without the lettuce